surprise!

i had started my violin
for almost one and a half year already
i dare not say that i am the best violinist
but then
i had put a lot of effort into violin this time
not like when i am small
i stop ballet and piano half way
and my violin teacher always said that
i am a hard working student
i always give her the best performance
i practice my violin all the time
i had a little confession to make here
i actually don't really practice my violin
let say when my class is on Friday
then only i will start practicing my violin on Thursday
but i have no idea why my teacher said that
from what i heard you perform just now
i know you did practice a lot..
but i did not
but what can i say
can i say:"no i actually only started practicing my violin yesterday.."
that sound very disappointing,right
ok back to the point
as what my title said surprise is really a surprise to me
my violin teacher told me that my music center is having a grand performance next year
there is ballet and orchestra
and my teacher told me that you are good and you are one of my best student
so i want you to join the orchestra next year
O.O
and that is not the worst part
my teacher then said since you are so good and hardworking
i am going to place you in the first violin
:O
just in case you don't know what is first violin..
Violins make up a large part of an orchestra, and are usually divided into two sections, known as the first and second violins. Composers often assign the melody to the first violins (who are often given more technically difficult music), while second violins play harmony, accompaniment patterns or the melody in a lower range than the first violins.
HAHAHA
can you imagine
me in the first violin
i got no confident in this..
next year i had chose to go to science stream
i had taken add math as one of my spm subject also
as my mom said add math is the most important subject
and i know that add math is not an easy subject..
people like me
stupid like hell
and the brain does not turn so easily
i had to spent more time on add math
but science stream there is bio,physic and chem also..
i can see that next year i am going to have lots of tuition,homework and pressure
and now this orchestra thingy
i know that if i join orchestra
i can have more experience
and maybe i can solve my stage fright also
AHHHH
thinking about next year made me headache
how i wish i can stay at this moment
but i know i can't..